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raindrops on roses: 11.11
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Wednesday, November 30, 2011. Does anyone even read these pointless posts? Sunday, November 27, 2011. Omg, what am i doing? My life seems so pointless at the moment. All that is on my mind is food, the time and how i can restrict more. I am doing so many bad behaviours at the moment, but i just don't care anymore. I want to be what i used to be-small, frail and fragile. I felt special that way, much more than i feel now; fat, disgusting and average. How quickly can i get myself back there. I feel like th...
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raindrops on roses: 08.11
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Wednesday, August 10, 2011. As you might have noticed, i haven't been doing the best lately. I have significantly lowered my calories, and i really regret it. i was only just maintaining, now, i wouldn't know what is going on :/. I admit, that i have STUPIDLY stopped taking my anti depressants. i don't know why, i guess i was feeling like i deserved to be depressed and i just followed through with that thought. I wish i could just snap out of it. I hate that i know what calories are. I hate the scales.
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raindrops on roses: 22.05.2012
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Tuesday, May 22, 2012. The past few days seem to have just lasted forever, i find myself hanging around, watching the clock waiting for the next time i am 'allowed' to eat, which is never much anyway. restrictive, small 'meals' (snacks). I don't really know where to go from here. if i keep going the way i am, i will end up back in hospital, but i know that won;t be for a while because i won't let it happen, or, i can turn this around and quit doing what i am doing and quite frankly, wake up to myself.
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raindrops on roses: 06.12
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Wednesday, June 20, 2012. We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face.we must do that which we think we cannot.". I love finding quotes that perfectly reflect how i'm feeling. I love how they can express my thoughts through few words. I still have hope though. i have hope that one day i will overcome this. i have to. Me at the age of about 11. The age of 13. About 14 yo here. It was the one passion i had in life. i wanted nothing m...
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raindrops on roses: 12.11
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Friday, December 23, 2011. 2 days until the big day! I'm actually kind of, sort of feeling a little bit festive which is so ODD for me, but i'll just go with it for now, how weird haha! Read that. . If only it were that easy! My gp appointment went quite bizarrely. I was in his room for roughly 2 minutes TOPS, had my obs done etc. And then we spoke of admission and he said he would get onto my psychiatrists' rooms to attempt to bring my appointment forward. So i let, not knowing how to feel. I have anoth...
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raindrops on roses
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Sunday, May 20, 2012. Wow, i didn't realised i'd done that many posts! Today i spent the day looking through my many old journals; food diaries, thought diaries etc. It made me realise how much of a hold this thing has over me, still, after all these years. i find myself still battling the same problems i was in all those journal entries. It's quite sad really. I don't know where to go from here. i am stuck in a bad place. i can't help myself anymore. I guess you can never hand out too many resumes!
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raindrops on roses: 20 june
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Wednesday, June 20, 2012. We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face.we must do that which we think we cannot.". I love finding quotes that perfectly reflect how i'm feeling. I love how they can express my thoughts through few words. I still have hope though. i have hope that one day i will overcome this. i have to. Me at the age of about 11. The age of 13. About 14 yo here. It was the one passion i had in life. i wanted nothing m...
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raindrops on roses: 09.11
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Wednesday, September 21, 2011. I am very overdue for a post. In the coming days i will do an update. I have been reading and keeping up with as many blogs as i can, just stuck in a limbo when it comes to posting myself. I am doing.okay. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Im 20 and have a head full of dreams. life is precious, i want to live not purely exist. Running with spoons . With Eyes Closed I Look Closer. From here. To there. In Purple. A dash of fairydust. DELICIOUS AND NUTRITIOUS LIVING.
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Why Hello There! | Becoming Bryana
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Becoming Who I Was, and Who I Know I Can Be. July 28, 2012. Well damn. I have not posted on this blog in almost half a year. I guess I’ve been dealing with lot and because of that, blogging has been neither a priority nor a desire. I don’t know if anyone is really out there reading any more, but if you are, I hope you’re doing well and having a wonderful July! So, what’s been going on with me? Well, how about a few short monthly recaps? June: I took the SATs for the first (and so far, only) time. It ...