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Out with it all. | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. Some words →. December 14, 2009 · 12:12 pm. Out with it all. I came across the phrase ’emotionally tired’ recently and that’s. Perfectly. If you’ve had a late night you can have a coffee, a nap – you know you’ll get it back together. If your emotions have had a battering well then you are strung out indefinitely and there’s no quick fix. Plus there’s the empathy thing. Do you get this? Of course before Kajsa I felt for people in difficult situations but now I. Some words →. Yes &#...
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Blue Jeans | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. The beginning. →. November 4, 2009 · 9:00 am. This morning I’m wearing my favourite blue jeans, high waisted flares with turn-ups. They fitted me again weeks ago but up until now I’ve hung on to my maternity pair. My body, it seems, has been in an hurry to forget about my pregnancy. There was no sign of a post partum bump mere days after having Kajsa. My waist returned. My breasts quickly softened. Stitches dissolved. Throbbing subsided. A quick, easy recovery. Out with it all.
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Absent | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. November 17, 2009 · 7:45 pm. I disappeared for a while there. I wasn’t reading or writing or even thinking much at all. At first it was because I was at home, my. Home where I am soothed by the sea and family warmth. A place where I can go visit Kajsa as often as I need whilst Lachlan ‘choo choo’s’ around the cemetary paths. Its a little less monotenous there. I feel at peace. So I withdrew and nursed myself a little. Today though it was time to get up and just do. Out with it all.
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Back to normal? | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. Blue Jeans →. November 2, 2009 · 10:37 am. It was only in the car on the way there that I realised I really didn’t want to go. But I sat in the car park insisting we wait a while before going in. We didn’t want to be early. We didn’t want to get there before our friends who had invited us. I just didn’t want to be there. Long time no see’, with no mention of Kajsa. A very normal greeting. 8221; Mamma…Pappa…Lachlan…1,2,3″. And I thought 4. Blue Jeans →. 3 responses to “. Hello, I c...
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Light | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. December 7, 2009 · 4:32 pm. I just glanced up to the window and noticed that it had got dark suddenly, in winters way. The sky is just gray though and there’s a street light shining on the street behind. And in the window itself a beautiful star shaped Christmas light hangs. I’m still irate and anxious. Sad too. But I love her with all my heart and what else can I do? PS Do you buy your lost one a Christmas present, do anything special at that time of year, make a donation etc?
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some words | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. Out with it all. January 2, 2010 · 1:06 pm. A friend of mine shared some words with me after Kajsa was born. They have become my mantra, a little salvation, a little hope. I share them with you in the wish that you find them as comforting as me:. Then a woman said, “Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow.”. Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears. And how else can it be? When the treasure-keeper lifts you ...
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The beginning. | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. November 5, 2009 · 4:09 pm. Kajsa arrived on the 20th of August. What we are going to term this day I don’t know. Her birthday or dirthday, her anniversary or angelversary? For now I concentrate on the second meaning of stillborn. The fact the she was still born. So here is the story of the day she was born. 8230;did I stroke her then? Or tell her I’d see her soon? I remember questions; ‘have you felt movement today? 8217;, ‘have you had any pain? That’s when I remember goin...
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limbo | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. Five months →. January 8, 2010 · 11:51 am. I’m making no promises from the beginning that this post will say very much. This blog is a bit of a dumping ground to me but thats kind of the point. Life just has to be simple for me to deal with it at the moment. And here I am so close to Kajsa’s grave at last yet her Christmas wreath will still be lying there. That is something I need to do something about. And sex after loss does anyone talk about that? I don’t, won’t. I’m sure...
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Five months | A Sucker for Gerbera's
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A Sucker for Gerbera's. January 20, 2010 · 3:56 pm. Its five months today since Kajsa came into our lives. I had thought of buying some flowers for her grave but in the end there was nothing in the shop that I liked, that was good enough for my girl. So Lachlan and I blew kisses as we passed the graveyard. He said ‘Kajsa, wake up! Tomorrow we will finally move into our new house (the road problems were followed by a frozen water pipe! 4 responses to “. January 20, 2010 at 5:53 pm. Your last paragraph des...
